A New Normal….

Well, after forty two years it appears that I have got it all wrong! My very organised (a.k.a. I like to be in control) personality was actually doing my health no favours.
After five months of dealing with a chronic sinus infection that wasn't either chronic or a sinus infection but simply turn out to be the effects of me pushing myself too hard for too long. I am now trying to figure out what is good for me and what isn't.

I have always believed that you have a goal and you set your mind on that goal and you do whatever is needed to achieve that goal. No excuses, no variables, you just did it.
Whether the goal be clean the house or lose 25kg . You just pulled up your big girl panties and did it!
But it wasn't enough to just do it. If you cleaned the house, better bake as well and 30kg is better than 25kg. Enough is never enough.

So now I am trying to figure out what is enough? What is the real important stuff to focus on? What is success?

What does it truly look like to ME?

Unfortunately or fortunately I have very little answers at the moment. My head is in a very muddily place and I am questioning what I thought I knew before.

What do I know? Really deep down in my core believe.

1. God is real and he loves me! Jesus die for me and has a plan for my life!

2. The devil is real and want to destroy me.

3. Relationships mean everything. Stuff will burn, but relationships are eternal.

4. A, the kids and my family are on the top of the list. They get sacrificed far too easily and quickly.

5.Women need women! Where would I be without my women friends?

6. I LOVE what I do! I am able to speak into women's lives on a daily basis and tell them that not only are they ok, they a FABULOUS!!

7. I will NEVER ever go on a diet again! I want to eat in a way that makes me feel healthy and able to move my body. Some times thats cheesecake and others it fruit.

8. Exercise is vital for my wellbeing.

9. I'm ok just as I am today, even if I don't feel it. I don't need anyone else to make me ok. I CAN trust myself.

WOW! I know more that I realised.

Now I just need to put it into action, gently and slowly.